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Love has a funny and surprising way of coming up at the most unexpected places and unexpected time. I find myself getting wrapped up over an idea of a person again... it's been years now since the last time I have this kind of feelings for another person....All of a sudden, this person is in my life and I’m in unfamiliar territory again. Funny how fast events can turn your life around. Not more than 7 months ago I was happily living my monotonous life. But something, no someone, then happened. This particular someone came into my life as a friendly companion and a real chum. It never came to me that we will be together in a romantic way. He used to cheer me up when I am down. Someone who is always there to lend a helping hand. In no less than 3 months of constant togetherness in out of town trips, the way we shared our time together and when he told me that he like me got me thinking, “How come I like this feeling?” I thought if I just ignored that particular question, it’ll just go away. But no, it did not. It got worse. It became a nagging question that constantly pops out of nowhere at any given time. I thought, “Hey its ok. Just enjoy the feeling while it’s there.” My life was colorful again. Just because of the new feeling this someone brought to me. It’s starting to consume me, the whole me. But that's what we do, right? Everyone wants love. Everybody, including me.
This someone made me feel very special, well-appreciated, and most of all made me feel that I was cared for. Everyday was wonderful whenever that person was around. This is new to me because usually I am the one taking care of the other person not the other way around. How special was I with this person? For him I am a warm blanket in the freezing cold... A refreshing drink in a blistering heat and a flower in a bloom. The constant SMS just to check my whereabouts. If I'm doing okay and making sure that I am safe. We spent more time together during weekends. Watching movies, do some errands or just stay home doing your laundry. That’s how special the feeling was. It was like walking in clouds especially when you told me that you love me and this "I don't know how long this will last but I hope I could stay with you a little longer. I enjoy every minute that I'm with you and I hope that I was able to make you happy. I could not promise to be the best friend or partner for you but I will take care of you as long as I can. I'll do everything just to keep you safe." This is what I really want long time ago.
I want you to know that I appreciate you, everything what you have done for me. Because you are such an important part of my life, I just had to let you know how much you really mean to me. I want you to stay with me longer. You may never know how important you are to me or how much I care for you, but you are and you will always be. For once in my life, I don't have to try to BE HAPPY, when I'm with you, it just happens... I may not be saying this everyday but I want to thank you for all that you do! Having you in my life... Makes everything so special & beautiful!
To that somebody I Love You too!
You are my sweetest surprise……
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.Don't mess with my feelings and stop fooling around!
No electricity... no resort... You have to set up your own tent if you're planning to stay overnight.
I fell in love at this place instantly :)
Sunset is gorgeous
One great weekend
Enjoy your Summer.... Be Safe!
Guests for Table 4
Food... Yummy!!!
Lambanog Wedding Souvenir :)
It's meeeh!
2009 year of the ox predictions for the Horse (1918, 1930, 1942, 1954, 1966, 1978, 1990) should be prepared as his luck would go to both extremes in the year of the Ox. Lucky stars shining on him in 2009 would be able to help him achieve success in his career, however some unlucky stars are also shining that could bring him tragedies and difficulties. These difficulties he should all pass before he will be able to taste the fruits of his hard work.
One lucky star that has influence on his work and career is the lucky star Jiang Xing. This star represents bravery, stamina and persistence in achieving success. This star also signifies better social status and leadership skills, which would benefit the Horse who is involved in the upper management, disciplinary teams and key positions in large corporations. They can expect satisfactory performance this year.
The star Di Lie could bring the Horse major problems, but with the help of influential people he would be able to face all the problems and solve them. Another star, Di Jie signifies moving. This could mean a new house for the Horse, a new real estate or new furniture.
Bai Fu is a star that signifies animal bites, Horses who have pets or who are working closely with animals are advised to take extra caution. Another interpretation for the star Bai Fu is a woman without sense who might bring great annoyance to the Horse.
One star that means good luck in wealth and career is the star Jin Gui. However the Horse and his family members might suffer poor health and injury on limbs and some teeth problems. Overall, the Horse can expect to make progress in the year of the Ox, as he can also look to have some changes in his environment. However, special attention should be given to his own physical and mental health and he also need to take care of his family members.
It is the last day of the year. It’s been a good year for me. There are ups and downs but I was able to survive all of them.
I have a lot of things that I want to do for the last time.
1. To pretend that I am happy when I’m not.
2. Holding on to the things that I need to let go.
3. Stay up late surfing the net.
4. Care about those people who do not even care about me at all.
5. Being nice all the time.
6. Cry because of the past.
7. Missing Kuya.
And the list goes on…..
Goodbye 2008 and Hello 2009.
Hoping to have a wonderful year!!!!!
Be Safe.
Merry Xmas Chai!
Moral story is learn to love yourself more than anything else.
A friend gave me a complete set of the Twilight Series as a gift. Twilight is a young adult vampire/romance novel written by author Stephenie Meyer. I really enjoyed this first in the series, Twilight, from Stephanie Meyer. I remember daydreaming about someone sweeping me away into a new world, because I was obviously too weird for the normal one. There are a lot of appealing things in this book, not only for teenage girls, but also for those of us who are a little older and wiser.
I read all 4 books in a sweeping 5 days so of ignoring everything else. The second book – New Moon was my least favorite (although it was still quite good because I admire Jacob’s character). I love Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. I’m anticipating the release of Midnight Sun-Edward’s version of Twilight. So, if you end up feeling the same way, don't let it make you give up too soon...) Why did I love them? Aside from the fact that it was given to me by a very special friend, I guess because it was escapism, pure and simple. Easy to follow, simple to understand. Just good old-fashioned entertainment. I can relate to it because once in my life I fell in love with someone….. I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him…
I can’t wait for the movie premiere of Twilight. I will not miss it for sure :)
This is the very day that I had my freedom! Free from all the pain.... from you... free from the shadows of the past.
There you are sitting on a couch, patiently waiting for me. Nothing has change. You still have that cute eyes and smile that I used to love. I said Hi and extend my hand. You didn't say any word and just embraced me so tight and whisper "I'm really sorry and God I miss you". I don't know what happened to me that time but I started crying. You know me too well. You saw the loneliness that I was trying to hide and wants to show you that I am doing just fine. This time it is caused by somebody else and not you anymore. We talked about us. Lay all our cards on the table. Your plans haven't change a bit. After what happened not just with you but with somebody else recently, I am afraid to trust guys again. It's a good talk and we said goodbye....
There are some things in life we have to accept that it is OVER.
Any idea?!?!??!
The Narra Seedling that we named CACHAI....
There's always the typical break-up line "But we can still be friends." But are you? And should you? And to make the question a little more complicated - what about when you're in a new relationship or even married? In such a scenario, meeting an old flame may not seem to be such a great event. Also, it will definitely bring back memories, and depending on the depth or seriousness of the relationship, create a flutter of sorts. It would be difficult to say that everything is over in a relationship. Hence, even if you feel that you can sustain a friendship with an old flame, it may be best to limit the degree of socializing or involvement because this may intrude upon or destroy your present relationship, howsoever understanding your new lover or spouse may be. Also, if you find that you are meeting this old flame on the sly, then it is definitely not friendship that you should cultivate again.
Well - the argument against is pretty easy. "Why live in the past?" "Why bring temptation into your life?" "Why risk the new relationship for a person not good enough to stay with in the first place." Or even worse - one that thought you weren't good enough to stay with? But is there always a risk? Is there always temptation? No. There are times when 2 people upon breaking up are still just friends. Obviously there was enough in common for the two people to date in the first place - so there should still be enough to stay friends.
But what if your new love doesn't like the idea? (And this is what it really comes down to.)
If your new relationship is really important to you - you should really respect their feelings. Jealousy isn't a good thing at all - but neither is continuing with something that you know makes your partner jealous. You just have to prioritize.
And if you're lucky enough to be with someone that isn't jealous at all - and doesn't mind your friendship with an ex? Is it OK then?
It's pretty interesting any way you look at it. I know people who were together for years - have split up - and will most likely never see each other again. Not in purpose but they've just started completely new lives. And I know others who are separated - both have relationship with others - and both couples are the best of friends.
There's a part of most of us that might always wonder either "What could have been" or simply how the other is doing. Or simply want to re-establish the fact that we are much better off without so-and-so. But memory is a funny thing. It tends to remember only the good or only the bad - never a true rendition of the past. Which could be a danger when trying to establish a friendship with an ex.
Maybe someday friendship may blossom between two ex couples... Give yourself time to heal.... move on and let go... Most importantly if both of you are ready to start a new friendship.
If you can't forget someone... do not give yourself to anyone... Be brave enough to face that you are still not prepared. There is no such things as "panakip butas" but there is such thing called "UNFAIR".
Love is always unfair to me anyways!
In life there will come a time that you will get tired, physically and emotionally. When you get tired…. You’ll stop and rest for a while to have that energy back again. I’m looking forward for the time that I will get tired of you. So, when that time comes then I will stop. I want it soon. I’ve wasted so much time, effort and feelings. You have caused me so much pain. I want you out of my life…. Totally out of my life. No text messages, no emails, no phone calls….. No nothing! It’s like I never knew you at all. It seems to be easy said and done but it’s not. What’s wrong with me that can’t let you go? What’s keeping me holding on despite of everything that you have done to me I’m still here? I don’t understand why I’m still affected with all the things that involves you. I’m still worried if something goes wrong. I want to help you achieve what you want and makes sure that everything is doing well. Am I loving you too much? Am I loving you as much as I love myself?
When is the right time to say I had enough? When is the right time to say it is over? Sometimes you love too much and you forget about yourself. True enough the most noble thing is to love unconditionally but when is the right time to quit? Sometimes you just want to quit when things start hurting you or you want to leave things as it is before the pain get even worse but still you don't want to give up.. you still hold on because you believe in your heart that he will keep his promises. That someday everything will be the same again.
Obviously, we’re not meant to be. I took the risk and I lost. You are happy and I’m miserable. I loved you unconditionally and I don’t have regrets. Because of you I discovered that I am capable of loving that much.
I have a confession to make, you are my first love……
It was last Saturday – July 26 at SM Mall of
I was very surprised when Jeff came. My remaining boot device was there WOW! Don’t ask me to explain what I mean by boot device….. You don’t want to know…. I bet yah! I miss Brian and Steel Ventus. They are my remaining boot devices. Almost all my friends close to my heart came… Jonathan my first SL at Dell, Jules – long time friend since Link2Support Days, Fred and Bendol of the G-Spot, Mommy Roan and Mommy Jaymee, of course the housemates – John, Eric and Don and my Emerson friends – Dots, Vic, Daisy and Jopet.
Just want to share some happy moments of that day.
Birthday cake from Dots…. Reminds me of someone Ü
My dell girlfriends. Joyce, Jules, Roan and Jaymee. That’s my NEW Purple Plum Dell Laptop on the
side.
Birthday Girl with her boot device JEFF…. I'm really happy to see u again!
The Housemates – Eric, John and Don. Thank you for the Long Stem Rose, VCD – Cutting Edge and the book respectively Ü
Everyone is busy trying to get hold of my New Dell Laptop Lolz!
Mommy Joyce came late… No more food harharhar…..
Bowling Tournament Dell VS Emerson at the
Group picture before calling it a day!
I would like to thank everyone that made my special day a very memorable one.
I hit the big three-zero.... I realized i've been here for 3 decades already. I have a lot to be grateful for. I've been blessed with so many things. I just have to learn to count my blessings. I started my special day with a mass. We went to Divine Mercy in Marilao, Bulacan. That same day is the feast of St. James the Apostle. My mom prepared some food for merienda. It's funny because all my visitors are my inaanak :)... I felt that I'm really getting old hahahaha. Then the following day we went to Grotto Vista with the Ocampo Clan for July birthday celebrants. I had a lot of accidents, my shoulder locked again and got a lot of bruises.. but It was really fun. Too bad a had to leave early because I need to meet my friends for dinner. I'm lucky to have true friends. I'm really surprised because almost everyone is present although there is one missing :( We may not see that often but i know that they loved me that much. They are the best things in my life. A friend told me why keep on chasing the leaves when I can reach for the stars? I deserve to be happy.
Thank you for all the greetings and the gifts..
